The year is still just getting started! We’re only about a week in. Feels like a lot has already happened, personally and in the entire world.
My family had the flu (3 out of the 5 kids), Bec hit a deer (the deer actually ran into her moving car) and just today Mary Kate’s neighbor (and all of our neighbor growing up) lost their house to a fire. So many parenthesis. Life doesn’t stop, the hits just keep on coming. I feel like as I get older they come faster, maybe? And I’m feeling the need to get my shit together so I can handle the hits.
The last 6 months or so I have been resisting all the things I used to cling to to help me keep my shit together. And if I’m being honest it feels like half brat and but also half needing to go deeper. A need to do some real work and healing. Healing is the word I’m sort of hanging on to.
I am over trying to “fix” my symptoms. The weight, the money, the relationships...I’m ready to heal my shit. I now know, for me it’s the only way. I’m looking at lots of things differently. It’s fascinating.
The fun part is looking at all the things I’ve been resisting, differently. My tool box looks new. One that has been really helping is my oils. Instead of using them simply to manage anxiety, I am using them to help the healing process. Don’t get me wrong there are days that I need oils and other things to calm my ass down. But I’m experimenting, and it’s working. I have been leaning in to the emotional support of two in particular. One is clove, it helps with boundaries. I need them. The other is ylang ylang, it helps connect. Connecting to heart over head, and helps heal. Bring it.
The difference now is I’m not waiting for them to work. Crossing my fingers and hoping the magic happens. I’m doing all the things. Working hard. And it’s a little messy. I’m drinking coffee AND eating kale. I’m meditating AND scrolling through Instagram. I’m enlisting professional help. Woah. It’s FAR from perfect. And it’s actually just getting focused. We’ll see!!
But today, on a kind of hectic and emotional day I feel hopeful and even grateful. Those have not been my words. I’ll take it. If you see me and I smell like a spicy flower, now you know why.
I think I can speak for my sisters when I say we are all on a similar path to healing this year. We started to work together and life, the universe, God whoever was like BAM!!! Here’s some life bitches. And I’m freaking proud of us. We all used each other and this place to hold on and do the work. And that’s pretty cool. Three Trees Sway is saving our butts. So thanks guys
Love, Liz
